So basically, I originally wrote like a page-long blog about my sexuality and my relationship status and stuff like that. But while I was reaching the end I realized that I didn't want to write about that at ALL. Instead I want people to know something.
Did you know that I am utterly useless? Do you find yourself gasping at that staement, ready to debate? Well just hold on a second and listen!
I am only "mediocre" in virtually every aspect of my life. let us take a look.
Sports: I play no sports whatsoever. the only sport I did play, tennis, I gave up.
Music: I play no instruments whatsoever. As for singing, I can't [although I still do :D].
Religion: I am kinda a terrible Christian.
Video Games/Computer Skills: Know nothing more than the average person.
School: I just get the work done.
The only thing that I've heard that I'm "good" at is my looks and style, supposedly. Great, so I am going to get through life just by looking good? I find it ironic that God has molded me to be the exact type of person I hate. I am, in essence, just eye candy. I have no substance, no special skills! And you want to know why? I completely lack drive. I do not have any determination to do anything whatsoever. Everything I start ends up unfinished.
Also, looking at everything in the world, I find myself only completely passionate about one thing that I never pursued, and it is now too late to do so. Whether I have any talent at it, I have no idea. One friend seems to think so, but the world doesn't.
But I have always been afraid of saying anything about it. And now, I fear it is way too late. Would I even want it as a career? Would I even be good enough? I don't know. Maybe it will always stay how it is, as a secret desire and regret from my teenage years and I'll end up working in a mediocre cubicle somewhere. But God...
I love to sing so much.
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Don't be silly.
ReplyDeleteYou don't know how much of a godsend you are jordan.